Wow!!! What a title! May Sound cliché but it is soo true and real! Life, people and circumstances have a way of leaving things with us. Some good and some bad! We need to hold on the good things and let go of the bad ones! But it is often the bad things that we hold on to causing us to be stagnant and not move forward! For the past 2 years God has really been dealing with me on this topic. Like I shared before I grew up in a single home. Things were not always easy! I've had my wilderness experiences and valley seasons. I've had my heart broken many times, various people hurt me including people I loved HARD! Disappointed by many, hurt turned into bitterness which eventually turned into unforgiveness. I was leading Praise & Worship carrying unforgiveness! I was interceeding for people with hurt in my heart. I was serving in pain. I wanted to be free; I wanted to forgive but I didn't know how. Until the Holy Spirit began to minister to me.
The first thing He said to me was that He doesn't send wounded soldiers to battle. God is more interested in your well-being and your emotional, physical as well as spiritual state more than what you do for him. Oftentimes we're hurting and instead of taking a back seat and allowing God to heal us and mend our broken hearts we keep serving not realising that we're an easy prey for the enemy as we're already weak! he'll know where to attack us! I did it for so many years! It took me to get sick for God to slow me down and take time to heal me! Let Him do it! If you need to take time out do so! Don't wait till God has to do it for you!
Then God began to tell me that on my own, I can't forgive. I need his grace to forgive. I was busy trying to forgive and when I would see the person that hurt me I'd go back home crying because the hurt still felt fresh. Thats when God told me, give it to me. You just be willing to forgive and let my grace empower you to forgive. When you forgive someone you don't forgive them for them but you forgive for yourself. You're the one that's hurting! They're out there living their lives! They might even have forgotten what they did to you! And that unforgiveness starts taking root in your heart. Tainting your heart. The Bible says in Matthew 5:8"Blessed are the PURE in heart for they SHALL SEE GOD ". When your heart is tainted by bitterness, anger, unforgiveness and many more you are not able to hear God clearly or even feel him near because these things cause a bridge between you and God. When I realised that I said to myself I don't want to allow anything to get between me and God. And I surrendered everything to Him . Told God how I felt, told Him EVERYTHING! And he began to pour his love and peace into me. The more I asked him to help me forgive and to give me the grace to forgive and LET GO!The better I Felt! I felt soo much freedom and peace! Today I stand as a living testimony!! I'm not a 100% there but I'm definitely close! God is AMAZING!!!! And NOTHING and NO ONE is worth jeopardising your relationship with God. Whatever it is!! LET IT GO ! Bring it to the Master! He's waiting for you! You're not in this alone! He's right there with you!
Be Encouraged! You will get through it!
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